Monday, 17 November 2008
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Do you ever have one of those days...
.... that's not necessarily bad, but it's not really great, either? Yep. Today has been one of those days for me. I'm sad. I'm depressed, to be honest. It's like this every year at this time for reasons I am choosing not to disclose so that I can remain anonymous. Let's just say, though, that the majority of 'challenges' I've faced in my life occurred during either November or December.
I've had a recurring health problem that I can't seem to overcome - surgery hasn't helped, neither has medication. If it isn't cured, I could end up severely disabled and unable to care and provide for my children. And as I am their only parent, I desperately need this problem corrected.
But since this isn't just any ol' blogging site and is specifically about dating and relationships, let's go to that aspect of my life. The childhood friend I hooked up with just over a week ago has only contacted me once since then - and he wanted to hook up again. Go figure. N is out of the country on business and won't be back for two weeks. He said he'd try to call yesterday before he left, but I didn't hear from him. Didn't really expect to, so I'm not really surprised; but still...it would've been nice to hear his voice.
I've heard that dating goes through cycles - it's either feast or famine. At the present, you could say I'm starving.
So, I'm doing my best not to focus on the dry spell my dating life is in right now and instead focus all the extra energy on being creative, spending time with my kids, reading all those books I never seem to have time for, and remember another feast is just around the corner.
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Comments (3)
You're not alone in the fight against seemingly unmerciful days that are just unrelenting in it's way of making one feel small and powerless. The solitude of single-hood can make it feel even more unbearable. I understand how you feel. My ex girlfriend dumped me a few months ago and I still am unable to let go. Now I have to pretend that I just want to be friends and that I don't have any feelings for her anymore. A wise individual has told me that the right course of action is to realize that we don't need that significant other to feel complete. As cliche as it sounds, it is what it is. I hope you get over this hump. I'm sure you have great children who can help you remedy your solace.
@consrv4us - You're right. I do have really great children, and they do a lot to keep me from being lonely.
I also understand your current situation ... it's so hard to let go sometimes. Much easier said than done. I hope things improve for you, as well. Thanks for the words of encouragement.
@Vivid_Orchid - You're welcome. I hope everything turns out well for you too :]